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11/30/17 I'm actually starting the blog early for once. I don't think I've really mentioned my class schedule much on here besides my free days during the week but normally I'd be in class right now on Thursdays. Thankfully my friend agreed to just send me the slides as I took today off because I've lost my voice, my sickness is still here sadly. Thankfully I didn't have to play tennis this morning, it's been a rough day with no ability to speak. I've been working on that original video I told you guys about recently and am hoping to be able to upload it tomorrow. I won't be playing tennis and I'm going to try my best to not add any other plans to my schedule. All I have is an 8am class which hopefully I'll have my voice for. I now see more than ever that I really want to pursue my YouTube channel to the best of my ability. Besides that, I'm now gonna study a little for my psychology exam tomorrow. I'm going to prepare for the lab...

Lol okay I won't go into much detail on today's eventful story as I did the last time but today something even crazier happened. Long story short I ordered some food from Burger King and one of the workers left their number on my receipt with "Text me" underlined. Turns out it was the guy that I usually chat a little with when I go to B-King but no, I'm sorry, only females for me haha. Okay well that for sure made my day and quite honestly I'm now even more motivated to go out and try to find a nice girl. Anyways tomorrow is my long day so who knows, maybe tomorrow will be the day. As far as today I decided to go play tennis despite being sick, I still won. My buddy and I raced today which honestly was the most fun I've had in so long. It felt so good to put the pedal to the floor lol. Oh yeah I won that too by the way, even while taking the longer route. After winning that and having some fun on the court I had to race over to my internship as I did y...

11/28/17 Sorry guys but today is gonna be another short post but I'm hoping you guys are watching the videos on my YouTube channel as I'm putting a lot more energy there. I actually recorded yet another video today :) But I'm working hard to bring more motivational and business related stuff to both the YouTube channel and this blog. I also will provide resources and as much knowledge as I can. I definitely need to spend more time on the serious stuff. Serious stuff meaning my actual business and my occupational status. Basically I'm broke lol. I thankfully have found a few jobs I wouldn't mind having which I'm gonna apply for. Despite hating it I'm gonna keep my current internship site for next semester and with that being said I think I'll be able to manage it. ehh maybe not, I'm actually now looking for a new internship location now that I've actually thought about it lol. But next semester, next year will be so different. I'll be ...

11/28/17 Another good Monday, I really enjoy these "days off" where I basically don't have any classes. It allows me to get so much done. If you read these posts and you're not subscribed to my YouTube channel for whatever reason I did upload a new video today and am expecting to have the next upload ready for either Wednesday or Thursday. I also managed to get a racket strung, 1 more to go then I'll restring my 2 rackets, makin a little pocket change. Ugh I am so ready to get past tomorrow, specifically my 8am internship class. I'm expected to present tomorrow and I just don't feel like it honestly. I'm thinking about doing what my friend said she did, just show up sign in for the class then leave. Alright this is gonna be a short post sadly, I've got quite a few other things I wanna get done tonight and it's already 10pm. Although I'm normally up late anyways tonight I wanna at least try to get some sleep especially considering I...

11/26/17 I want to be a YouTuber lol. I really do want to take my channel much more seriously but man time is such a commodity and it goes by so quick. I really just can't wait to be done with this school bs. It's such a waste of time for me right now, it takes away so much of my time with all this homework. In my free time I'm usually out doing what to me is cool stuff and vlog worthy but because I'm still not used to it I either get nervous or feel awkward doing it which basically causes me to not record. And the worst part is sometimes I just don't feel like doing anything. All of this has to be attributed to college because I'm always tired after working so much on homework and I am typically energetic and motivated to do stuff unless I'm tired and down from doing school work. But that's okay. I'm gonna get this done, I'm gonna do it. I really want to include more of these reflections on the channel also since the majority of my following...

11/25/17 I'm an idiot guys, idk if I've said this before but I am for sure an idiot. I'm making life way too difficult for myself with personal issues that need to be addressed now. I can't keep doing this same stuff next year. I was up till 4am last night just wasting time. After finishing the lab report which I think I mentioned in the last post I went on to edit a little and work on the make-up lab which I need to finish asap. 4AM! And knowing me my first thought was, there's no way I can go in for my internship at 8am, no way. The day was already going to be long with an internship from 8am to 12pm then work from 3pm to 8pm but I also was becoming slightly sick. Upon turning my computer off around 4am I realized that my throat was extremely dry and that I was much colder than I should've been. Just my luck. But I'm gonna stop with all that here. The good part of the day was meeting a fellow intern from VCU while at my internship. Talking with her rea...

Yo we're almost at 50 subscribers guys, lol we've almost been there for a while now. But today we're only 3 subscribers away! If any of you guys that read this could subscribe if you haven't I'd really appreciate it. My goal is to get to 100 before the year ends and I'm still feeling confident about it despite the little progress I've been making. If you haven't read the actual post for today go check it out, I tried my best but it's tough right now. Anyways if you did read, I'm still working on these stupid lab reports but I'm gonna try to finish another video for you guys. Ugh so much to do so little time. Thanks for your time.

11/24/17 Man I'm so done with college. I honestly hate it at this point and best believe if and when I become a millionaire and have any sort of influence in this world, I'm gonna tell people this: there is no such thing as a right way, you live life on your own terms. If getting a college education isn't a part of your journey or you're unsure if you wanna go then don't. It's a mf waste of time man. This idea I had to even humor that you need some social aspect when you're growing up, or that you'll have issues with being social if you're home schooled is absolute baloney. They say or at least I say that you go to college for the experience, yep, that's all you're going for. Unless you need it of course. Wanna be a doctor? I won't let you operate without 10+ years of schooling. Don't know what you wanna do in life? Don't waste your time and money. I'm sorry for starting the post like this but it just pisses me off man. Th...

11/23/17 That date doesn't even count, I'm here starting today's post at 1am, 1:02am est to be exact. Jesus lol, I just hope I don't make these same mistakes, have to deal with this same stuff for anymore of my life after college. This stupid group assignment man. It's due tomorrow and I just knew it, I just knew we'd still be working on it. I don't know what part of our agreed upon idea of finishing this crap last weekend didn't transfer over. The sad part is that I was the one of the group who announced to everyone upon discovering the email, that we received an extension till tomorrow for this assignment. It has taken way too long honestly, we've been working on this for way too damn long. I have so much other stuff to get done. I have another lab report to do, apparently due next Friday. And to make things worse I still need to finish the previous one which I was so nicely allowed to redo and take quite the jump in grade. Ugh that's en...

11/22/17 I apologize in advance for how short this post is gonna be guys but it's been quite the day and I'm just tired. I've been up so late the last couple nights working on this stupid lab report with a group composed of me and 2 girls who just don't like to get things done. I seem to be the only one who had the mindset of actually having this done by last Friday which was when it was originally due. Once they changed the due date to this Friday I just knew, I had that feeling that we'd still be working on it. But I'm going to do all I can, everything I know all today then I'm done. I don't care after that. It's for a class where I don't know the material, I have no idea what I'm doing with this lab report, and the girls like to communicate whenever they choose to and when they do, they seem to always have something new to add or some problem to fix. On a brighter side, I got to see a Lamborghini Huracan today. It's the same lime g...

You can't get points today for yesterday's game. 11/21/17 I heard that phrase above in yet another motivational video and god I could I relate. This journey has been so tough and everyday I seem to ask myself for more. Why am I not seeing any results? Why do I still seem so far from achieving my goals? Why, why why? You want to know why? Because everyday is a new day. Just because you can't feel/see any results from your work does not mean you're not progressing. And just because you did something yesterday or 5 years ago when you were in grade school does not mean you'll reap the same rewards today or in the future. My journey has been so tough man and that's exactly why I'm documenting it through these platforms I've been given. Forty something days in now and here we are. I have so much to be thankful for, so many good memories have been lived through, and so many new barriers are being crushed everyday. I'm learning something everyday whethe...

11/20/17 41 days in guys, I'm so excited. I tried to start this post earlier but it's been that kind of day. Another good Monday to be alive. Another rather cold Monday here in RVA. As most days go, this one did not go according to plan. This was indeed a good day for me despite not getting things done that I originally had planned per say. Rather I got some work done and was able to reconnect with some old buddies for an evening of tennis. Also I had a package come in which is always nice, there's just something so uplifting to receive packages lol. Today was awesome to be honest. I played the role of photographer for a buddy of mine whose trying to gain traction as a real estate agent. With very little experience taking professional photos I've been helping friends of mine while building my portfolio. I literally had too much fun today as we traveled from location to location, all centered around one area, while getting to attempt to take high quality photos. I t...

Guys I am so excited right now, the merch is now active on my store and I think I'm finally ready to make an order for more stuff for the YouTube channel. If you don't know what I mean when I say merch I'm basically referring to products I'll sell that will feature my name on them. Go checkout my store and you'll see lol. If you like what you see I would be so happy if you ordered something, the shirts are only $13, I plan to order a couple myself. If you do make an order make sure to let me know and if you want you can send me some photos/videos and I'll include you in a video or on some other social media platform. As of course you don't have to order however, you reading this post is enough support for me and we will continue to grow either way! Hopefully you can take from this business aspect I'm introducing here if you plan to run your business in the same way as mine or if you're just getting started. Anyways, I think I'm finally ready ...

Day 40. "Every morning, I will do today what others don't, so I'll have tomorrow what others won't." Good god lol this is such a bold statement. I love it. As my long time readers may be able to guess from my old posts, I got this phrase from yet another motivational video. I watch this stuff everyday to keep my mind fresh and my workmanship on a positive and forward wave. Today was yet another great lazy Sunday, I actually managed to get some exercise in. After months of worry over my finances and avoiding any extra expenses I finally ordered a bit of the many things I need right now and that package will be here tomorrow! :) Idk about you guys but simply getting out and doing stuff can be so motivational and uplifting. Just sitting around in the house can greatly affect your mood. You won't feel like doing anything. So although I have much work to do I chose to go out and exercise, and now I get to do that boring school work. That's pretty much m...

Day 39. T'was the night before the start of an interesting week. I really really enjoy these Saturdays where I get to start the day with Lamborghini's, Ferrari's, Porsche's, and GT-R's. My friends and family may never end up reading these posts but I truly appreciate and am happy to see so many people coming out to our meet-up. I am beyond happy to see people of different backgrounds, ages, occupations and many other distinct categories all coming together to share and discuss which at least for me provides motivation to keep chasing my goals. You'd be surprised to see how humble the owner of a $500,000 car could be. Our little show here in RVA will feature cars from 1960's rare Mustangs to something I've just now seen today for the first time ever, a Mclaren 650s. And... what made this Saturday even more special was my initiative to speak and actually attempt to meet people lol. You would be surprised but honestly I'm not sure if I'm differe...

Day 38. There will always be good people in the world. No matter how tough things may be or how bad things may get always remember that tomorrow is a new day. Always remember that although things could also be worse, they truly can always be better. And things will become better if you know that they will. It's days like today that bring some hope back for me. Some belief in the fact that even if I don't make millions as I aspire to, or even if I don't become who I set out to be, life is still great. We must not ask for too much in life nor should be ungrateful for what we do have. It's okay to set goals and to have aspirations but to still be here alive and healthy is truly a blessing. Nothing in life is guaranteed. Everything in life happens for a reason, if you believe so. And our choices everyday, down to the small choice to smile when you see people, can go a long ways towards the kind of day you'll have or the kinds of things that will happen for you or ev...

Day 37. I am slowly losing my patience again. I'm tired of wasting time on things that simply "don't matter." We were told that we would have lecture in our evening class after completing our exams which is reasonable considering the class is 3 hours long. Man not even before flipping to the last page of the test I just wanted to walk out. Once I've made it big I really just want to ask, what's the purpose behind this stuff? Teachers complain about how little they make, I honestly say they're making too much, at times. Why test your students when they can honestly tell you that they're not prepared? Are we trying to prove something by doing this? I simply don't understand how we allow these "teachers" to continue "teaching" when their success rates for their students is less than that of job employment rates. There certainly should be no collegiate system where everyone gets a medal/degree simply for going to college but I...

I somehow always seem to be still working into the early morning hours. My problem is that I spend so much time with distractions that I end up limiting myself with time to get to the things that I really need to get done. I just had to make this post because I certainly am feeling it, I'm hearing the messages to myself. Get it done sooner. Set goals for yourself. Cut out the distractions. How back do you want it? Man I'm so tired but I have to keep going. I've had so many moments like this where I have this choice to just give up and go to bed knowing that it'll severely impact my ability to cram any information in. So many times have I done this. Between the International Baccalaureate program that I did in high school to my now 5th year in college I am no stranger to late nights of studying and working. I am beyond ready to be done with this schooling stuff but at the same time I'm thankful and appreciative for the test of my character. This certainly is...

I'm nervous. There's so much out there to make you anxious but for me right now I want to apply to these jobs. I want so badly to pass this exam tomorrow. I want to engage socially with my colleagues tomorrow. I want to feel good about my day. I want to get things done that need to be done. I want so badly to be making a little more money than the $100 dollars every 2 weeks I'm making right now. Gas and food are killing me, I don't have money for anything else. I have about 10 tabs open of jobs I could see myself doing right now with my goals and schedule considered. I have to have time for this, my business through blogging, YouTube, and everything else is a major priority for me right now. But I need another source of income. I have to pass this exam tomorrow. I have to. I always feel bad about procrastinating and what do you know, I'm just now studying for tomorrows exam for the first time. Yet somehow I am now alone, everyone I've talked to hasn't st...

Day 36. Long and Weird days. It's Wednesday, my supposed day off #2 for the week, no classes, no work, the Netflix and chill type of day. Well today was certainly no normal Wednesday, but then again, they never are and quite frankly, I wouldn't want them to be. After all the fun stuff I've already done I now am about to go to my internship again for day 2, to help out a friend. Thankfully I don't "have" to help another friend out with their tennis group tonight as I'll need all the time to cram for tomorrow's exam which I've already heard is insanely difficult.   #bad teachers I simply won't allow this notion of purposefully making tests stupidly difficult is by any means helpful for students to learn something. I won't allow this mindset/opinion that you must suffer and struggle with something to learn it. [This will definitely show up in a future video on my channel] (the exact moment that I'm referencing with this opinion). Yet...

Day 35. Lesson for today, while you're on your journey, sometimes you're gonna have to fight. The battles you incur along this journey are what will prepare you for the end result and how you handle these battles will determine your character. They'll also test your will, do you really want it? If it were easy then everyone would be doing it. Sometimes you're gonna have to do things that you don't wanna, you'll have to work with people you may not "like," and you'll want to quit. But the only thing that determines how you react to these negative occurrences is YOU. Today I finally got back to my boring old internship. I was there last week but I had settled on doing shifts only 2 hours at a time periodically simply because the internship is super boring. But today I managed to do 5 hours :) so proud of myself, gonna do 2 more tomorrow maybe, then 4 on Thursday, followed by another 4 on Friday. And for those that don't know, no, I am not bei...

Day 34. Another good day and what do you know, today's Monday =O This was certainly no ordinary Monday for me and it didn't even go as planned which turned out to be for the best. I was supposed to be meeting my group for class to finish our project but I waited until I got all the way to campus, having paid for parking, and noticing that only I was at the meet up location and the time agreed upon to check my emails. As I normally would do. And after getting all the way there I was unfortunately notified that one of my group mates was sick and that the group would have to meet another day. Oh yes I almost forgot, for the usual readers of my blog you'll remember that I left my notebook in class on quite an "awkward day," thankfully the notebook was still there unharmed and is now back in my possession :) Anyways, after leaving the building I met up with 2 bros of mine and we spent a good amount of time just talking. Something I really enjoy and try to include...

Down below you'll see an assignment required from us as homework. The class is a waste of time, but sometimes I take more from it than I thought I even could. This assignment is sort of a self reflection which I do here daily on this blog. I hope this helps, there were several questions asked of us under the two headlines in bold which you'll see my answers for below. Ideal Profession " I don't have an ideal career and honestly, I'd prefer to never settle with just one. The type of work I'll be doing ideally would  involve marketing and advertising for businesses as well as content creation and sales for my own business. I enjoy working with numbers and data so I would do all the of back end work myself. Although most of this work can be done remotely I would rather travel and take the job with me. As a marketer I prefer to work with larger businesses but ideally, I wouldn’t refrain from any business opportunities. I like to help people and to...

Day 33. Hey guys today's post is gonna be a bit short but don't worry I'm still gonna make it a good read. The benefit or reflective side for me will come from just providing what I know here and today I just wanna mention to you guys the importance of time. Today is a new day. I'm about to make some big changes today. If you read yesterday's post you'll see that I tried and made some progress but today will prove to be even more monumental for me and hopefully you guys too. Time is one of the biggest commodities that we have no control over, we all know that. To have the ability to spend our time in the manner of our choosing, we all want that. But not all of us will. And as of course not all times will happy. There's very little that we do have control over in this life but the one thing we all share is the ability to make choices. Every choice we make not only says a lot about who we are but also determines who we will become. I think it's so impo...

Day 32. I'm doing everything I can guys. I'm committed to making these changes and giving a little everyday until we've reached success. And even then I certainly won't give up. The grind never stops. Today I "got so much done" and feel great about how I'm living my life. Despite all the negative thoughts and things I wish I had done I chose not to go to work today despite needing the money to work on myself which is more important to me right now. However I do really need to make some money soon lol. I cleaned my room in a manner in which I've never done before, life skills, and I even am in the process of fixing this darn phone. Idk about you guys but I think that as technology gets smarter/better it really doesn't get too much "better." I still have to buy a new phone every few years and somehow some way we continue to innovate and find something new for the iPhone every year. Anyways, tomorrow is a new day. I tried filming the l...

Day 31. I'm still working, so much work to do. It's no wonder I'm not in a relationship right now and to be honest no wonder I don't have many people in my social group either. The day started with more fun in my 8 am lab where I just so happened to leave my notebook in the classroom. This is pretty normal of course, we all can forget things. But in my case I drove all the way back after leaving campus only to chicken out of going back into the room to get my notebook. There was a class in session and I didn't want to be disruptive as my notebook was towards the front of the room. So yes, I left my notebook there in a room where I could've easily have retrieved it but my introverted personality got in the way. I tend to prove the "nice guys finish last" theory. The second awkward piece of the day involves yes, you guessed it (if you've read any of my previous posts), my internship. I didn't manage to finish my lab report last night despit...

Day 30. Yayy no headache today but today has to have some more significance. Here we are 30 days in and I gotta be honest with both you guys and myself, nothing has changed. It doesn't feel like it at least and I started this journey here with the intent to make change. I need this change in life to become the guy I claim and want to be. How can I expect to be an influencer and have any significance behind what I say if I'm not taking the actions myself. And here we are 30 days in and the me that I know that I can become and want to be is not here yet. But I'm working on it. This blog has certainly provided benefit for me at least to track my journey and I now want to focus on that one word "change." I'm not just doing this to do it I want to make change. All the stuff I map out and set to achieve is going to happen. I will get achieve success, I will take the risks and make the sacrifices to provide benefit to others, I will get out of this slump. I will. ...

Day 29. This is gonna be a short post, sorry guys. Another Wednesday aka free day where I yet again lived in a sense not on my own terms. Yes I am responsible for the choices I make and things I choose to include in my day however basically I'm too nice lol. I end up doing so much more for other people before doing for myself. The best news of all though, I got through some hours of my internship :) I cannot wait to finish up with this college stuff and begin to work basically. I just wanna begin to make some money and begin to experience the challenges that boys face to become men haha. To become independent both financially and in general is what I as most guys am working towards, and I too am chasing happiness. I just want to be happy in life, is that too much to ask for lol! Anyways I hope you guys are doing well, there's at most 10 of you that read this blog and I average a solid 10 views on my videos at minimum lol. So... I'm considering making some changes in a...

Day 28. Starting this post at 5 pm on one of my free days as I just about forgot whether I made a post for yesterday. I simply could not remember how yesterday went or how the day ended. How did it end? Well for starters I was up till 4 am, just contemplating and trying to find some excuse to give so that I could avoid going to my internship at 5 am. Certainly by staying up till 4am there was no way that I was gonna be able to survive the day anyways with 1 hour of sleep but I also just didn't want to go. But as I mentioned yesterday and I'll continue it here, enough negative talk dealing with my internship. I've ultimately decided that I'll only go in for 1 of 2 of the annoying jobs they have me do in their gym which actually isn't so bad. Considering that I can tolerate this job much more, I'll just only go in for this job and hopefully I'll begin to quickly finish these last 40 hours and hopefully won't have to fluff any hours :) But that's pr...

Day 27. Life is tough when you commit yourself to things you don't enjoy or people you don't like trust me. The way that life should be is you don't do anything you don't want to do but life is full of choices. We all make choices based on our values and morals which most often are influenced by those we grow up around. I can say from experience with this internship man, that when you have to do things that you don't want to do it can make everyday of a life a living hell. No wonder people are so crazy, tensions are high, and societies is struggling. I don't understand why people don't want to help others. I don't. This stupid internship has gone completely opposite to how I was initially expecting despite the fact that I not only gave a full speech to my supervisor on how much I didn't/don't even want to do it, but these people/this company I'm working with is family. People are lazy, people don't care, people are selfish, people are...