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4/30/18 I'm free at last, well hopefully. will know by wednesday, I'm fairly confident that I was able to pull through my h374 class overall with a C. let the fun begin...adulthood 5/2/2018 so close yet so far looks as if I've completed everything except for h350 (nutrition) I have to both take and pass the final exam I'm trying my best and giving everything I have I just really want to be done with this whole college this I certainly never want to deal with people in this particular environment again I for sure want to help and motivate everyone, I hope to be able to share my opinions to help others following my journey but I'll never play the role as student of a university again it's not worth the money (wasn't for me)

4/29/18 we're going to own this, we won't let tomorrow or this challenge in general defeat us, we are going to prove it to everybody. this is not the end; this is only the beginning I want to give up, I say I'll never do this college thing again, I complain/complain/complain about my life's situation, and I simply don't want to move forward but we can't have this, we can't allow this. this is my life, we only get to do it once. your life's circumstances do not define you, what defines you comes from within. it's not about your degrees, money in your bank account, or other certificates and achievements. it's about what you do, it's about how much heart and courage you have to do the things that you get done tomorrow is the challenge, these past 5 years have been the challenge, life is a challenge. we will defeat this, together you don't need the motivational videos, you don't need mom or dad's help, you just have to get u...

4/27/18 less than 2 weeks. oh my god guys this is huge, life is about to change, change in a major way whether we want it, whether we're ready or not $31,000 in debt, but no more homework, no more projects I become a slave to america but no longer will I be a "student" it's time to start doing the real things that I have to be doing to be able to do the stuff that I actually want to be doing in life period no more wasting time; I struggle with prioritizing but now I have become a man on a mission I don't even desire to form any new relationships not for business or work, I don't even want to purchase or even think about cars or other material items, and I most certainly don't want to spend my time doing things with the inclusion of people that aren't getting me closer to my goals. this is my time I love to drive I love helping people I like a flexible schedule I like to be able to keep moving and not just sit behind a desk for 40 hours...

4/25/18 $31,000 in debt after 5 years of college :) (about $20-30,000 paid off throughout the years) - desperate situations my government recommends at least a yearly salary of $48,000 in order to truly afford this debt lol, I had no idea they gave opinions such as this they actually gave a lot of helpful information regarding my situation and I am trying to remain optimistic unfortunately I'm not 100% done just yet an exam in h374 and h350, both of my classes on Monday I desperately need to pass both to be able to graduate I have to schedule and then complete the ACSM exam (~$200 or $350) I also need to finalize everything with my supervisor at my internship I then need to make sure that I will be a part of this graduation ceremony in 2 weeks :L I am so ready to have this behind me

4/23/18 it's time, it's time, I say again, it's time I can't keep playing around the people seem unhappy, there's little money around here and barely any reason to stop by this particular destination on the map. everyone that comes here (my experience of meeting people with more money from the north and those out of state or from other countries) sees this place as just not somewhere they'd want to reside in and I honestly can't blame them. there's no energy here, there's so much nonsense and small crimes occurring on a regular basis, there's very little to do and not much money around here. I want to change this, I see the potential in everything and man; I have the energy within I know I do. I can feel it inside that with the opportunity I would bring that warmth and appreciation that people need to feel more comfortable and together we would change this place. you don't see people doing pranks for YouTube around here; you're ris...

4/22/18 as much as I want to hear and abide by the principle of patience I cannot let this financial issue become not as important in my mind I'm in a lot of debt, at age 23. sure I may be young but I don't plan to always live my life on the losing side of things. I have big goals for life and want nice things. I have a desired level of success much higher than those around me and I can't afford to waste years upon years if I want to make it. I'm making money right now but only enough to survive the bills and lifestyle I currently have. I can't even afford a cheap apartment or my student monthly payments for my loans when they start up in the next 6-8 months. exercise more strength gains flexibility stamina hydration business regular YouTube videos always recording My Journey - business, cars, motivation YouTube Instagram Facebook learning and investing course to help get started? Go-Pro? advertisements time to enjoy life :) ...

4/16/18 Monday's :P I still have so much growing up to do but hey, we're living life. hopefully gonna make this a great week and get some stuff done. 4/17/18 Fun Fun Fun, my goodness this week is already just being that typically kind of week for this semester this internship experience 😌 I just can't wait to be done with this college crap; it hasn't been fun honestly very soon I'll hopefully be working, paying back my debts, and probably still single yay! 5 years to get a degree as I've said before man... we only get one life people aren't going to consider others, especially not those facing difficult times who aren't happy with their lives... they tend to make others unhappy... they lose perspective I never want to be that kind of person. I love helping people and seeing others win welp... time to do homework as usual then hopefully I'll get to finish my videos or work on my business 4/18/18 Mom's bday at the start of th...

4/15/2018 thanks so much for all the support guys, I now will begin my transition over to other media outlets for my business as of today. I've done a lot of "talking" along this journey since entering college, since becoming sad and depressed and choosing to pursue other opportunities, and ultimately since starting this new path with business and what I have today Simple Made Digital Social media marketing Education for starting an online business Education and consulting for improving one's life overall YouTube e-commerce and Affiliate Marketing this business has so many outlets, I have so many ideas and have gained so much knowledge, but I am afraid that I have become STUCK; that I have gotten so far and now am over inpatient, saddened with my progress, and just not enjoying this anymore. while I remain focused and determined to work I now think that this is the time to just go out, enjoy the process, and work. this daily blog has taught me a lo...

4/12/2018 tired. tryna make changes lol but thankfully I got some news from my little cousin that will hopefully provide benefit for what we have here. I was basically made aware of how boring I am lol, how uninteresting I truly am and it's true. I have to work on it. this blog is unoriginal and half the time it involves very very short posts the problem though is all this stuff I have going on. I received yet another email today with details/basically saying that I may be able to do another internship that I applied for. I've already "kinda" accepted 1 social media marketing internship with a nonprofit and now I'm hearing back from a second company that I applied to. my summer 9-5 job starts very soon, I graduate in about 3 weeks, I have to schedule myself for a certification exam before graduating... it's just a lot my car is also about to hit a major milestone... 30k miles all driven by me :P making more money, always moving forward anyways guys,...

4/10/18 it just goes to show, if you just show up, things happen you can just show up with a racket and tennis balls at the tennis courts and someone will play with you it doesn't matter where you're from, what you do, or what you look like we as people are here to be together, to work together met some more tennis friends today and got to see some very nice cars mustang gt, ferrari california, a subi wrx (lady driven), a challenger hellcat as well as a few other challengers I'm still soo tired though, I'm just always tired I'm not unmotivated at this moment but I am feeling sluggish and sleepy didn't go to the internship today 😅 I normally go there on Tuesdays but with all the time on the court I honestly just didn't/don't feel like it today, maybe tomorrow today's my day about to work on the free product, hopefully finish my part for the h350 group project, and get things planned out for the remainder of the week for my business

4/9/2018 Monday's are always long days, all we can do is make the best of them start the week off right finally gonna spend some time doing what I want to be doing tonight, I'm so excited if only I were done with my internship, it's the only thing keeping me busy right now short term goals launch the website by 4/16 (next Mon) filming IG intro video for YouTube channel YouTube videos starting new theme for the channel as student/entrepreneur/go for your goals for the website? NEED TO BE ALWAYS FILMING purchases maybe car decal maybe new pair of jeans creative stuff for YouTube channel RS logo for car new camera tripod stupid exam for school need to check on student loans also selling old textbooks graphene speed pro there's so much going on right now 😕 but we keep moving forward

4/7/2018 another good Saturday woke up feeling not so great but we're ending it off on a good note about to do some school work for h350 then string 2 rackets for some moolah it's all about the business, probably won't get to work on it again tonight but we'll see I really need to work on another aspect of myself -getting things done -rather than procrastinating, do it now -once you start it, do it -if you're gonna do it, give it your best that's what I share as inspiration for people and now it's time for me to practice what I preach as they say. I struggle badly with completing my school work. I quickly become distracted, I easily become unmotivated to complete it, I honestly am just tired of school and homework don't take anything for granted appreciate what you have consider what you give when thinking of what you want to get nothing in life is guaranteed I just found today -something that I have- I might not need to buy/make anot...

4/6/2018 do what you have to do to be able to do what you want to do no more doing things just because everyone else is doing it I do what I have to, if I don't have to nor want to then I won't do it's not good to compare yourself then end up feeling bad for yourself do what you have to do to be able to do what you want to do tennis today for pay :) tennis tomorrow maybe just for play stringing rackets x2 still haven't finished this stupid assignment for h374 as of course, we got yet another assignment today : due in two weeks I STILL HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO WORK ON MY BUSINESS jesus christ, I am so ready to be done with college no way can I even afford to go to my internship today, sorry I have to finish this stupid school work first... but on the bright side... it's Friday

4/5/2018 yep... another Thursday 8 hours at the internship... 9 in my books however and my goodness, can't wait till it's over completely missed lunch... typical such great weather too but oh well, another one for the books now I have to finish that stupid assignment for tomorrow until tomorrow

4/4/2018 weird days man... I simply cannot wait to no longer be a college student. it has been a very weird and in my current opinion, not so beneficial experience. it has taught me a lot, primarily life lessons. lessons that I would've learned with any of my other options available at age 18 in my opinion. I would've been happier with the other options. I for sure would've been happier working right after high school rather than immediately going to college. skipped class again :) skipped class, spent some time at the internship, then went back to campus got some more rackets to string (potentially a new client), and sat through a presentation on "effects of aging on Cardiovascular health." very good presentation I actually managed to film some more for the YouTube channel, hopefully I can get back on the 8 ball tonight I really need to finish if not get much further on the assignment for h374 that's due on Friday as tomorrow I'm expected to be ...

4/3/2018 I finally got some sleep... and... I'm feeling great it's time to rock n roll as they say, I'm ready to work I completed my stringing orders to the best of my ability, made the best of my day, spent some time at the internship, attempted to record a video for the YouTube channel and now it's time to work :) as of course, I didn't do very well on the so called "easier" test in h374, I managed to fail yet again but thankfully I'm still "passing" overall. tonight I want to work on the stupid project due this Friday for that class hopefully this means that I did very well on the test in 350, god I really need this. I have to pass that class. everything is coming along decently, idc about grades; as they say "C's get degrees," and all I want is to be done YouTube Marketing Finding a potential full time job Graduating Cert exam summer job only four more weeks after this week, thank you God... somehow we'r...

4/2/2018 it's over :) another good Monday and thankfully I'm all done with the annoying exams always working making a little money when I can for the business which I will be launching very soon strung 1 racket yesterday, 2 tonight, then I need to get my 2 rackets done very soon always give your best effort even when you don't "have to" it's the only way to truly be that "good person" that you want to be okay enough of the arbitrariness... I'm tired and I don't want to just fill up this post with nonsense. internship tomorrow, will probably spend a good amount of time there despite the fact that I am nearly 60 hours behind with this process and there honestly is just about no way I can catch up... let's make this a good week

3/31/2018 welp here we are, going into the fourth month of the year and I'm gonna keep it real, not much progress has been made. I don't feel as if I've gotten any closer to my goals. I definitely don't feel any more satisfied and content with life than I did last year. I haven't grown. I still am unhappy. I'm still broke and have no idea of how I can even make things better. it's 9:30pm here, basically close to time for me to go to sleep, or so I believe. I'm just not working hard enough. after listening to the story from the guy working at the gas station I stopped at today I can honestly agree that I am not working hard enough. I'm fucking spoiled and I just don't know what to do. I appreciate what I have and for sure days like today, stories (of how life real is for some people) such as those I heard today really put things into perspective for me. it's 9:30 and I typically am sleep and don't stay up past 1am in spite of the fact ...

3/30/18 9 hours yesterday, 6 hours today at the internship, maybe 2/3 hours for tomorrow. hopefully got a B or so on the test today, for sure didn't get an A as our professor is an idiot, he gave us less than an hour for a rather difficult exam :) I'm feeling doubtful that I'm really gonna make it big, that I'll be able to make any positive major moves in the near future but I'm doing my best and working hard each and every day tired... friday evening and all I wanna do is sleep... it's only 9pm I definitely don't want to go back to my internship tomorrow but it's whatever I spent the majority of my friday at the internship, started the day struggling with my h374 class.. both the lab then a test in the lecture nearly ruined my car 😖 ugh well hopefully things will get better soon. I'm going to order my car decal and vlogging tripod here tonight. thanks for reading

3/29/2018 test tomorrow, not ready test Monday, why me? project due Monday, what is life? I'm tired and super busy, can't wait for the weekend. pay day in 2 days :) people don't look out for you, you have to look out for yourself. lesson of the day for me every darn day. give your best no matter what a little movement forward is better than any amount of movement backwards can't wait to graduate already, college sucks. I wouldn't do it if we were to go back in time, wouldn't and won't do it again. I don't recommend it. in certain cases it's mandatory, in certain cases, it can negatively impact your life and future. thanks for reading.