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3/31/2018 welp here we are, going into the fourth month of the year and I'm gonna keep it real, not much progress has been made. I don't feel as if I've gotten any closer to my goals. I definitely don't feel any more satisfied and content with life than I did last year. I haven't grown. I still am unhappy. I'm still broke and have no idea of how I can even make things better. it's 9:30pm here, basically close to time for me to go to sleep, or so I believe. I'm just not working hard enough. after listening to the story from the guy working at the gas station I stopped at today I can honestly agree that I am not working hard enough. I'm fucking spoiled and I just don't know what to do. I appreciate what I have and for sure days like today, stories (of how life real is for some people) such as those I heard today really put things into perspective for me. it's 9:30 and I typically am sleep and don't stay up past 1am in spite of the fact ...

3/30/18 9 hours yesterday, 6 hours today at the internship, maybe 2/3 hours for tomorrow. hopefully got a B or so on the test today, for sure didn't get an A as our professor is an idiot, he gave us less than an hour for a rather difficult exam :) I'm feeling doubtful that I'm really gonna make it big, that I'll be able to make any positive major moves in the near future but I'm doing my best and working hard each and every day tired... friday evening and all I wanna do is sleep... it's only 9pm I definitely don't want to go back to my internship tomorrow but it's whatever I spent the majority of my friday at the internship, started the day struggling with my h374 class.. both the lab then a test in the lecture nearly ruined my car 😖 ugh well hopefully things will get better soon. I'm going to order my car decal and vlogging tripod here tonight. thanks for reading

3/29/2018 test tomorrow, not ready test Monday, why me? project due Monday, what is life? I'm tired and super busy, can't wait for the weekend. pay day in 2 days :) people don't look out for you, you have to look out for yourself. lesson of the day for me every darn day. give your best no matter what a little movement forward is better than any amount of movement backwards can't wait to graduate already, college sucks. I wouldn't do it if we were to go back in time, wouldn't and won't do it again. I don't recommend it. in certain cases it's mandatory, in certain cases, it can negatively impact your life and future. thanks for reading.

3/28/2018 just another awkward day... I lent my notebook out with all my notes expecting to have received it back yesterday but things didn't go according to plan, I then didn't manage to get it back today... 😑 this notebook has all of my notes for both of my classes... I have an exam on Friday in H374 and an exam next Monday in H350. my goodness I opted to not go to my internship today after being told that I could come in, rather I decided to enjoy this random nice weather in RVA and play tennis. honestly this was ultimately a good choice imo, I've been inside for so long now and it's been a bit depressing. I needed to get out and exercise but I now am a bit further behind on my hours. I honestly am hoping that my supervisor will not be so demanding with this process but I'll be going in bright and early tomorrow so we'll see; I might end up actually catching up and completing all 240 hours. Despite the predicted forecast and first half of the day, w...

3/27/2018 it's that kind of day, I need it. Nissan GT-R R35 seeing this car is motivation for me, so motivating :P it's already turning out to be one of those days so I need to flip the day over and get some things done. Keep Moving Forward

3/26/2018 thank goodness, we didn't have nutrition today. that class honestly sucks, the professor is horrible honestly (asshole), and I really don't think more than half the class will retain at least 50% or more of the material post graduating from college. I'll never change my opinion on this it's been another one of those Mondays. unfortunately I witnessed an older woman crash into the side of a parked car as she tried to pull out from behind it. it's not even about age but I certainly have noticed that people who become more experienced with life if you will, or become less involved or caring/aware of their behavior, tend to lose perspective. these are the people that may be more vulnerable to ridiculous errors such as what I saw today. a test this week with a project due in the same class all on the same day, a test next Monday with a project due in my internship's parent class, so much work I managed to help a friend of mine, always makes me happy...

3/25/2018 it's time to dedicate my life to the process it's time to make my goals my life, to make my daily actions meet my values everyday working everyday working on my fitness working out drinking more water stretching more everyday producing content youtube and videos photos/social media content for the website everyday working to be better it's time to crush these last few weeks of young adulthood school and classes student loans business and clients content creation financial management social relationships physical fitness I keep overthinking things with the business but I think I've finally laid out a plan 1 YouTube channel it's me and my journey 1 IG/Twitter/FB for business 1 website (for now) actually things will take a turn here for this post today is a big day honestly; things are about to change for the better it's just me, myself, and I doing this thing so I really need to be committed, I need to enjoy it like I...