I'm in so much debt
12/3/17
guys I'm feeling sorry for myself, I'm feeling tired, I'm feeling down. I kinda don't want to go in for this meeting with my adviser tomorrow morning, I'd much rather sleep in lol. Because of the exam that was due today and more importantly, me waiting till this morning to rush and attempt to complete it I am now exhausted. I went to sleep at nearly 4am and woke back up at 9:30 to start the exam. In tomorrow's meeting with my adviser I'll be making my schedule for my final semester! I;m sure she's gonna ask but I honestly don't even want to talk about it, all the stuff you guys already know about if you read my posts daily. Basically I'm struggling as you guys know, struggling with my classes, struggling with these professors and my "peers", and struggling with life in general. I am just tired of it all and she knows it honestly.
But I'm not gonna make that the topic for today's post. I'm gonna be positive for you guys. After I've left this meeting which has a maximum duration of 30 minutes lol, I will be shooting over a call to a family that will hopefully shed some positivity my way. The woman I met last week was beyond encouraging to the point where I may be able to work with her in her business or be able to connect with some valuable people in her network. I am really excited for this and for next year honestly. I simply need to/try to remind myself everyday that no matter how things may seem to be right now, life keeps going. And for me I simply will be graduating next spring, there's no other option lol. I will give up my pursuit of building my platforms and business for the time being at least, to finish this degree. Otherwise I'd just give up on school honestly. If I were offered a decent paying job before graduating next semester and for some reason I wasn't doing so well with the classes, I'd drop out. I really could care less about acquiring a college degree at the moment.
I just want to take the time to remind anyone that needs to hear it, we all are on our own paths. College plain and simply is not for everyone. You have to live life with your own choices and not compare yourself to others. For those new to my blog and don't know my story, I simply shouldn't have started college at age 18 right after graduating from high school. I personally believe that I would've been happier going into the military. This college stuff is tough, everyone wants to compete to be the best and everyone is just so independent that to the point where "if you're not ready, you better get ready." But it's not all bad, I certainly am not saying not to go, there has been plenty that I've enjoyed, tons of good people that I've met.
In the end however, if and when I achieve my goals, there would/could be no attribution between my success and my experience with College. If anything, and I truly believe this to be factual, college is holding me back from my dreams. And not to mention I'm currently facing several thousands, tens of thousands of dollars in debt. What benefit is that to my life? How is this a good thing? Education certainly should not be free as the saying "it pays to know" is very true however at 23 years old to be in such debt is insane. I honestly plan to do as some do and cry & beg the community to support me next year with donations so that I can further pursue my business and actually have some chance at life. Idk what is wrong with people who think that it's acceptable to be paying their student loans into their 50's. No. I'd rather die honestly. My plan is to ask for donations which is so petty but I believe that I can make a difference in this life, that I will make change and with a little financial help my goal is to rid myself of this stupid debt before the age of 25. So before 2020. That's one of my major life goals but unlike many, I plan to and will pay my debts off by then not just over the span of my life even as a goal.
Anyways guys, I've got a lot of work to get done. This journey has been so tough honestly thus far but we have to keep moving forwards. Everyday is a new day and everyday is a good day. I'm hoping to have a new video up by Wednesday for anyone who supports my YouTube channel.
See you tomorrow.
guys I'm feeling sorry for myself, I'm feeling tired, I'm feeling down. I kinda don't want to go in for this meeting with my adviser tomorrow morning, I'd much rather sleep in lol. Because of the exam that was due today and more importantly, me waiting till this morning to rush and attempt to complete it I am now exhausted. I went to sleep at nearly 4am and woke back up at 9:30 to start the exam. In tomorrow's meeting with my adviser I'll be making my schedule for my final semester! I;m sure she's gonna ask but I honestly don't even want to talk about it, all the stuff you guys already know about if you read my posts daily. Basically I'm struggling as you guys know, struggling with my classes, struggling with these professors and my "peers", and struggling with life in general. I am just tired of it all and she knows it honestly.
But I'm not gonna make that the topic for today's post. I'm gonna be positive for you guys. After I've left this meeting which has a maximum duration of 30 minutes lol, I will be shooting over a call to a family that will hopefully shed some positivity my way. The woman I met last week was beyond encouraging to the point where I may be able to work with her in her business or be able to connect with some valuable people in her network. I am really excited for this and for next year honestly. I simply need to/try to remind myself everyday that no matter how things may seem to be right now, life keeps going. And for me I simply will be graduating next spring, there's no other option lol. I will give up my pursuit of building my platforms and business for the time being at least, to finish this degree. Otherwise I'd just give up on school honestly. If I were offered a decent paying job before graduating next semester and for some reason I wasn't doing so well with the classes, I'd drop out. I really could care less about acquiring a college degree at the moment.
I just want to take the time to remind anyone that needs to hear it, we all are on our own paths. College plain and simply is not for everyone. You have to live life with your own choices and not compare yourself to others. For those new to my blog and don't know my story, I simply shouldn't have started college at age 18 right after graduating from high school. I personally believe that I would've been happier going into the military. This college stuff is tough, everyone wants to compete to be the best and everyone is just so independent that to the point where "if you're not ready, you better get ready." But it's not all bad, I certainly am not saying not to go, there has been plenty that I've enjoyed, tons of good people that I've met.
In the end however, if and when I achieve my goals, there would/could be no attribution between my success and my experience with College. If anything, and I truly believe this to be factual, college is holding me back from my dreams. And not to mention I'm currently facing several thousands, tens of thousands of dollars in debt. What benefit is that to my life? How is this a good thing? Education certainly should not be free as the saying "it pays to know" is very true however at 23 years old to be in such debt is insane. I honestly plan to do as some do and cry & beg the community to support me next year with donations so that I can further pursue my business and actually have some chance at life. Idk what is wrong with people who think that it's acceptable to be paying their student loans into their 50's. No. I'd rather die honestly. My plan is to ask for donations which is so petty but I believe that I can make a difference in this life, that I will make change and with a little financial help my goal is to rid myself of this stupid debt before the age of 25. So before 2020. That's one of my major life goals but unlike many, I plan to and will pay my debts off by then not just over the span of my life even as a goal.
Anyways guys, I've got a lot of work to get done. This journey has been so tough honestly thus far but we have to keep moving forwards. Everyday is a new day and everyday is a good day. I'm hoping to have a new video up by Wednesday for anyone who supports my YouTube channel.
See you tomorrow.
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